Between is the story of my time in between the losses of two best friends. “Fractured Headlights” begins in the immediate aftermath of a breakup and the feelings of the moment. “Ghosts and Trauma and Shit” then speaks to a deeper, delayed reaction and the effects of mental health trauma. “A Happy Song” is a song of hoping and coping, trying to move on and look back with joy and partial successes. “Little Streams” is the next stage in this journey, more existential and yet also more personal as the loss expands beyond romantic love. A song written both for and from mothers and partners. “Between” attempts to sum up this journey, or, more accurately, comments on the impossible nature of condensing this multiplicity of emotion. The EP, like this final song, centers on the importance of understanding and accepting the liminal times in life and persevering.

  • Driving along the rusted plains
    Gotta get away
    Started in heaven now I’m here
    Don’t know what to say
    The interstate has a face
    Doesn’t have a name
    Can’t even find myself
    ’Cause I’m not the same

    So I hit the wheel upside the head
    And I beg and I burn and I fly instead
    The road doesn’t heed my cries
    It knows all that matters is the pain and lies
    And all I see
    Ahead of me
    Is fractured headlights
    Oh oh
    Fractured headlights

    Just one place I want to go
    But it’s not the same
    Wish it was her fault
    But I’m to blame

    I can’t look at the passenger seat
    Still feel her touch
    Whirlpool inside my brain
    I think too much

    So I hit the wheel upside the head
    And I beg and I burn and I fly instead
    The road doesn’t heed my cries
    It knows all that matters is the pain and lies
    And all I see
    Ahead of me
    Is fractured headlights
    Oh oh
    Fractured headlights

    Tasting salty streaks
    I’ve waited weeks
    For you

    Can’t believe I still have tears
    I’ve waited years
    For you

    I don’t want to wait
    Anymore
    It hurts me to the core
    You—u
    I adore (I adore)
    But I can’t see you anymore
    Through the fractured headlights

    So I hit the wheel upside the head
    And I beg and I burn and I fly instead
    The road doesn’t heed my cries
    It knows all that matters is the pain and lies
    And all I see
    Ahead of me
    Is fractured headlights
    Those fractured headlights

  • Walking barefoot down the road in 95 degree heat
    The pain under my toes, masochism from the street
    This town’s so fucking perfect, I can’t take it anymore
    I break down just off the sidewalk halfway to the corner store

    I’m the devil on my shoulder, the angel wandered off
    If life was a switch, I probably would’ve turned it off
    The ghosts in the courtyard cheer when I sing off key, that’s okay
    ’Cause no one hates me more than me

    I’m laying in my bed thinking how I should escape
    The tests and papers pile up but I know they all can wait
    The climbing rope is tempting, I know to tie the knot
    I’d marry it right now but this damn room’s too short to drop

    I’m laying on the floor gasping for each breath through tears
    I don’t deserve the bed, I’ve confirmed my own worst fears
    I’m not tired of this world but I hate this feeling more
    Fuck my brain and heart and lungs, I don’t want them anymore

    I’m the devil on my shoulder, the angel wandered off
    If life was a switch, I probably would’ve turned it off
    The ghosts in the courtyard cheer when I sing off key, that’s okay
    ’Cause no one hates me more than me

    Every week another hour realizing
    All the shit I had been disguising
    As me
    But when there’s nothing left
    And I haven’t answered any texts
    When I’m afraid all my friends hate me or are hurt
    I find comfort in that

    I’m the devil on my shoulder, the angel wandered off
    If life was a switch, I probably would’ve turned it off
    The ghosts in the courtyard cheer when I sing off key, that’s okay
    The ghosts in the courtyard cheer when I sing off key, that’s okay
    The ghosts in the courtyard cheer when I sing off key, that’s okay

    ’Cause no one hates me more than me

  • I just wanna talk about your love
    I just wanna sing and smile and cover
    All the pain
    ’Cause this is a happy song

    I remember dancing in the rain
    I remember sunsets playing Here Comes the Sun
    Watching the sun go down

    Our love was like fire in the night
    Bringing warmth and bringing light
    Together where we belonged
    Singing our happy song
    Do do do do

    I see us driving towards the stars
    I can see the steam on the car windows
    While holding you in my arms

    I can feel your fingers tied to mine
    I feel your breath against my spine
    Givin’ me shivers
    You’re everything I need

    Our love was like fire in the night
    Bringing warmth and bringing light
    Together where we belonged
    Singing our happy song

    When I lose faith I just recall
    My favorite memory of all
    It’s just a smile
    Your smile

    It gave me peace and hope
    Kept me safe when up a rope
    To come back to you
    Always back to you

    Our love was like fire in the night
    Bringing warmth and bringing light
    Together where we belonged
    Singing our happy song

  • When I wander through the mountains, know you’re on my mind
    I’ve reached the peaks and crossed the valleys never knowing what I’ll find
    I have found magic in how the stone keeps me alive
    By holding Death just within reach, he’s climbing by my side

    Though I may fall, so may we all
    So if someday too far away I roam
    Know the trees and little streams
    Will care for me
    ’Til I come home

    Across the world there’s a city where you dance and live and shine
    And though I’d give it all to be there, you’re all that’s there that’s mine
    Out in the forests and the ranges, I belong to the sky
    The earth my soul releases, the birds teach me to fly

    Though I may fall, so may we all
    So if someday too far away I roam
    Know the trees and little streams
    Will care for me
    ’Til I come home

    When I wander through the mountains, know you’re on my mind
    ’Til I come home

  • How to put words to the feelings of years
    How to capture the yearnings and life-draining tears
    All of our hopes and dreams
    Held together by silence and string

    Tying up friendships then cutting them loose
    Despite all our wins we had so much to lose
    I know where the end began
    But in the beginning… damn

    It was the moments between kisses
    Looking in your eyes
    The moments between kisses
    Were when I realized

    I don’t know what to do
    When all I want is you

    How do I live my old life
    After I’ve seen
    The moments in between

    Our memories are like wistful balloons
    Let go by impatience and missed just as soon
    Off to somewhere unknown
    To be kept safe until we come home

    Encounters are rare and more rarely planned
    Staggered avoidance makes the love hard to stand
    But this pain is not a sin
    Just penance and growth to understand where we’ve been

    It’s a moment between kisses
    Not when our love dies
    These moments between kisses
    Are when I realize

    I don’t know what to do
    When all I want is you

    How do I live my own life
    After I’ve seen
    The moments in between

    Between the air and the lake there’s a tree
    Facing the sunset that’s following me
    Sitting on our branch alone
    I’ll keep playing ’til my heart’s overthrown

    Sitting on branches (the moments in between)
    Hope’s sitting on branches (the moments in between)
    Sitting on branches (our moments…)
    Sitting on branches

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